Day 2 - after a crappy day at work, I couldn't find the motivation to really work out tonight. After running around to soccer pictures and football practice. I was worn out.

I check my bodybugg and I and just about right on for calorie intake, but I still had 450+ calories to burn today. In the goal of walking 10,000 steps per day, I was only at half of that. I have a plan for tomorrow. While my son is at football practice I can walk around the park. His practice is an hour so that should help with my walking goal.

Today I found myself walking to eat something, but I didn't really feel hungry. I just didn't know what to eat.

Well day 2 is over and I am looking forward to a better day 3.

Sunday

I start today. Again. Today the scale had 212. I sit here and wonder how in the world that happened. How did I let myself go to 212 pounds. At 37 years old, I am married with 3 children. I have no time for myself, and most days run from here to there from one sports practice to another. I work full time at a job where I sit 95% of the day.

I can do this. I really can. I am worried that I will fail again, but completely disguised in my appearance. So I must try again. I am worth this. I must loose this weight.

Today I renewed my subscription to my Bodybugg. I have used it before with success, I know this will be a wonderful tool again.

I also cleaned off the treadmill that I have been using as a high dollar laundry hanging area. I promised myself and my husband that I would use it everyday day if we purchased it. I don't think that it even has 25 miles on it and it is 2 years old.

I decided to clean off my desk today, after the treadmill, and found 2 Bob Harper DVDs new in the packages. I bought them knowing they would be the ones that helped me take the weight off. The musy be several months old by now.

I really am a team all alone. I get no support from my family, which includes my husband who himself is over weight. I have to do this for me and my children.

I can do this - I just have to.